Being nonbinary No.1

I came out to my family this Christmas. I didnt plan to, but i was drunk and me and my dad were left unsupervised. After telling him, and receiving a huge amount of verbal abuse, of being humiliated and hurt, i had the biggest freak out ever. I wanted to die. My mum was there all the way through trying to calm me down and I told her I want to transition.

Its now mid january and ive spoken to her once about it. She’s struggling and I feel guilty but I also feel free. I feel like I can finally start what I’ve been waiting for my whole life.

I went to my first doctors appointment and my GP is reffering me to the nearest clinic. That will take a while to go through. In the meantime, i can help my mum. I want to make sure that she knows that I love her and that my transition isn’t as horrible as she thinks.

Of course, I know that I will lose family and that my mum wilk feel ashamed. Thats just the way she is, thats just the way the family is, but I will always be proud of her. She raised me and my brother on her own. She moved countries for us. She did EVERYTHING for us. At this point I just want to help my mum heal. She deserves it. But she also deserves my honesty.

As for my dad, what he did was irredeemable. I can’t forgive him no matter that I understand where his words and actions came from. I was afraid for my life and I cant forgive that.

See, that’s what the app is perfect for.

Being nonbinary No.1